Lin Qingping and Gu Juncheng

Chapter 473 My Heart is Full of Guilt

"Lin Qingping." He leaned down and pressed his forehead against hers.

Her breath was instantly filled with his scent, but after he called her name, he remained silent for a long time.

I don't know if he was brewing something or just didn't know how to say it.

After a long silence, he finally spoke in a low voice, "I've been wounded before, I know what it feels like to be in so much pain that your face turns pale and you're covered in cold sweat. I thought that was what we soldiers endured, what men endured. I never imagined that one day you would experience such pain..."

His voice grew softer and softer, until finally it seemed as if something was stuck in his throat, choked and choked up...

"If only I had known..." He only managed to utter two words before swallowing the rest. There's no such thing as "if only I had known," especially since his precious daughter was already born. Besides, what's the point of saying "if only I had known"...

He took a deep breath. "Lin Qingping, I feel so guilty. This is the first time I've felt so helpless. But there's nothing I can do... That's why I said it's better to have a son. If you have a son, he won't have to go through so much suffering in the future. Lin Qingping, it's much harder for women than for men."

Lin Qingping lay stiffly on the bed, her mind blank.

So, is that what he meant when he said it's better to have a son?

"Do you think it's harder for women than for men?" she asked, stunned.

"Yes." Gu Juncheng gently stroked the back of her hand. "Lin Qingping, you've shouldered so much with me. I just need to do my own thing and be a good soldier. You've played all the other roles behind me: wife, mother, sister, daughter. At the same time, you're also building your own career. Now, you're also enduring the pain of childbirth. Lin Qingping, I admire you and respect you very much. You are the true pillar of our family."

Lin Qingping gave a stiff smile; these words sounded strangely unfamiliar.

"But do you think I don't know how hard it is to be the pillar of the family? You've already worked so hard, I can't imagine that the daughter will have to work this hard in the future, how can that be?"

This matter came to an end with Gu Juncheng's rhetorical question.

Lin Qingping looked at the ceiling of the ward and said, word by word, "Gu Juncheng, I've worked so hard and endured so much so that Zhangzhu won't have to suffer like this in the future."

“Gu Juncheng, you are not allowed to say ‘if only I had known’ again, and you are not allowed to talk to Zhangzhu about how much she suffered for her mother. Whether it was hardship or pain, it was our own choice. You are not allowed to put this pressure on Zhangzhu. Zhangzhu did not have the right to choose when she came into this world.”

She hopes that her precious daughter can grow up carefree in a stress-free environment.

Lin Qingping did not expect that Gu Juncheng would stay with her at the hospital until she was discharged.

She originally thought that with his workaholic nature and profession, he would probably go back to the island the next day.

As a result, he said that it was approved by his superiors and that he also had a vacation. If he didn't take it now, when would he?

So, he did everything himself in the hospital, which amazed Gu Youlian. She felt that not only was she doing nothing, but she was actually getting in the way.

"I think I should just go back to the capital," Gu Youlian said with a smile when she entered the ward one morning and saw Gu Juncheng helping Lin Qingping brush her teeth.

Lin Qingping was embarrassed by the laughter. "No, what will happen to Zhangzhu if you leave?"

That's right, Gu Juncheng does everything personally, except for Zhangzhu. For some reason, she always cries when she's in his hands.