bestfiction Chapter 715: Fail Heaven or Fail Myself
Chapter 715: Fail Heaven or Fail Myself
Chapter 715: Fail Heaven or Fail Myself
"I may be in love with you, but what am I to you? Salvation? Or a crazy person talking nonsense?"
She smiled helplessly, "Some things happened to me that I can't explain. No one in this world can believe those things except Ah Yan. So I am also a very complicated person, and I don't want to bring this complexity to you."
Quan Qinghua didn't understand her logic at all. He had carried such a past, but he had walked out of it. How complicated could Feng Zhaolian's so-called complexity be? She was a princess of Guiyue, with a clear background and her parents were so loving that they almost became a model for Guiyue country. Where did her complexity come from? Who was the person she talked about all day long?
He let go of her hand, said nothing, asked nothing. Even when he said to her, "I might like you," he didn't respond. It was as if he hadn't heard anything, and it was also like a rejection.
Feng Zhaolian smiled self-deprecatingly. She knew this would be the result. Others didn't understand Quan Qinghua, but she knew him too well. He was autistic. She learned the word autistic from Ah Heng in her previous life. It was the perfect way to describe Quan Qinghua.
This kind of autistic person has his own little world. He lives in this little world and no one can enter. He will reject anyone who approaches him.
She had been rejected by him before, but at that time, she was full of enthusiasm and didn't care no matter how many times he rolled his eyes at her. She rushed forward without hesitation. Unfortunately, he left Guiyue and never gave her a good face.
Was she confessing to him at this moment? He still didn't look good to her and remained silent. If you want to refuse, just say it clearly? She has to experience it herself. Really, autistic people are unwilling to say even a word.
But God knows how many times she had gone through a psychological struggle in private to be able to say that she liked him. She had someone she liked, from her last life to this life, including the reason she got involved with Quan Qinghua in the beginning, all because of that person.
So when she realized that she might have gotten used to pestering Quan Qinghua and it caused her to feel something different, she felt extremely panicked.
She was afraid that she would live this life as a reality and her previous life as an illusion. She still couldn't really accept the fact that she had lived two lives. In her subconscious, she always thought that she was still the Lotus King of Qianzhou and the androgynous medicine man. She wanted to go back to the place she was familiar with and stay with the people she was familiar with, instead of taking root in this continent. Once she took root in this land, she would be a Return Moon person through and through, right? Then could she go back?
She had been fighting with herself, but unfortunately she was defeated in the end, so defeated that she even confessed the fact that she liked him in front of Quan Qinghua. This meant that she gave up Xuan Tianhua and gave up her previous life.
Who would have thought that after all she had given and sacrificed, Quan Qinghua actually rejected her. It was really embarrassing for her! "I was just joking. You know, I just like to joke around. Don't take it seriously."
She turned around and returned to her previous nonchalant look, even reaching out to touch Quan Qinghua's face, "Look, you're still so young, I really don't know which girl will marry you in the future. While you're still single, I'll touch you a few more times."
As she said that, she reached out to touch his face again, but Quan Qinghua subconsciously stepped back. She missed and her feet slipped, so she fell forward and was about to fall flat on her face.
Finally, the man in the green shirt reached out with his sleeves and held her up steadily until she stood up and looked into his eyes.
"You really want to take advantage of me?" He laughed. "Feng Zhaolian, you have been teasing me for ten years, and now you say you are joking. When will I be able to completely get rid of this joke of yours?"
She wanted to say that you can get rid of it now. She wanted to pull her arm back from his hand, but unfortunately she failed after several attempts. "Let go!" She was a little angry. "I am the Princess Guiyue. I can do whatever I want. No one can control me. If you want to get rid of it, stay away from me and don't follow me. Don't see me from now on, and you will get rid of it naturally."
He shook his head, "Since we are traveling together, we will definitely meet. Perhaps this is God's arrangement, and none of us can escape." He held her tighter, "You wanted to save me from the abyss so much, but now you just throw me away with one sentence, 'You are complicated.' Feng Zhaolian, what's the logic behind this?"
"So what do you want?" Feng Zhaolian was also upset. "This won't work, and that won't work. What will work?"
Quan Qinghua still smiled, "Why is this and that not allowed? It's obviously you who is being awkward. I went out of the city to see you off, but you didn't even look at me. I chased after me with great effort, but you backed away. Feng Zhaolian, even if we are just ordinary friends, you shouldn't be so shy. I don't mean to disturb your dream. Everything that should be in your dream exists in your dream and has always been there. But outside of dreams, you should also be different, and you should start to adapt to and accept everything you have now."
He helped her up again and said, "Let's go back to the room. I saw Ye Wenyan went to bed early and didn't seem to be feeling well."
"Not feeling well?" Feng Zhaolian ran towards the temple. Quan Qinghua tried to grab her but failed, so he gave up. Thinking about it again, this girl has always had this personality since she was a child. He has known her for almost ten years, so what's surprising? As for her saying that she likes him... Actually, there is nothing surprising about it, because he has heard Feng Zhaolian say this many times many years ago.
Even when they first met, Feng Zhaolian grabbed his sleeve in front of many people in Guiyue, and then raised her beautiful and delicate face and said: "Prince of Northern Qi, you are so handsome, I like you."
That year, she should have been six years old! A six-year-old girl didn't know anything, she just thought he was good-looking and said she liked him. But that year he was already twelve years old, not only did he know what it meant to like someone, he had also seen Concubine Li's scandals for many years.
So he pushed Feng Zhaolian away, said nothing, and even gave her a look of disgust.
Back then, he believed that beautiful women all had bad hearts. Even beautiful little girls would have bad hearts in the future. Just like Concubine Li, she did things that were not human.
Later, when he grew up a little, although his thoughts were not so extreme, he began to dislike himself and isolate himself. He felt that he would never be able to live a normal life in this life. He had too much on his shoulders, and if he dissected those things in detail, they would seem too dirty.
So he avoided Feng Zhaolian if he could, and ignored her if he couldn't. He thought he had given her enough cold faces and cold eyes, but he still couldn't stop her passion for him. He never understood why this girl had such a strong passion for him, until he returned to Northern Qi and saw her again, he realized that she actually mistook him for someone else.
People are so strange. When others are enthusiastic, they resist awkwardly. When they know that the person they really want to give enthusiasm to is not them, a little emotion starts to play tricks in their hearts, wanting to get back the enthusiasm.
This girl told him she liked him again tonight. Quan Qinghua thought, this time she should be serious, right? And she should be saying it to him, right? And not to someone else?
His mood suddenly improved, just like a beam of sunlight suddenly shone into a dark corner for many years. Although it was abrupt, it gave people hope for life. He thought that he might never give up this hope in his life, and he hoped that she would not give up on him either.
In the dilapidated temple, Ye Wenyan was fast asleep. It was not yet midnight, but Shi Liyuan cast a sleeping spell on her. As long as nothing unexpected happened, she would be able to survive the day and night.
Feng Zhaolian reached out to touch Ye Wenyan's forehead. Ye Wenyan's forehead, which had regained its color and human temperature, was now burning hot, and he was obviously having a fever. Feng Zhaolian was worried: "Is this really okay? Can you cast a healing spell to reduce this fever?"
Shi Liyuan shook his head, "I don't know any magic to reduce the fever, and the fever won't go down anyway. We can only endure it until tomorrow night, and then everything will be fine." He looked at Feng Zhaolian, then at Quan Qinghua who just walked in, thought for a while and said, "Before Ah Yan went to bed, he asked me to tell you that the person in front of you is actually quite good, and you don't have to cling to the past. As long as you're alive, you have to look forward. If you keep looking back, it would be a waste of God's efforts.
Ah Yan has mentioned something about you to me before. Although it is not very detailed, the general process is still clear. If you can listen, I will tell you some truths. If you can't listen, then go to the side and rest. "
Feng Zhaolian was still a little awkward, twisting her fingers, not knowing whether to nod or shake her head. But Quan Qinghua came over, held Feng Zhaolian's shoulders to make her sit steadily, and then sat cross-legged beside her.
Feng Zhaolian said, "Don't press me," but he sat down obediently and looked at Shi Liyuan seriously.
Shi Liyuan nodded, and without avoiding Quan Qinghua, he said, "In a person's life, how much water to drink, how many words to say, and how many meals to eat are all determined by fate. When the water of the previous life is finished, the meals are finished, and the last breath is taken, that's the end. Including the person in the previous life, it's over. Heaven gives you one more chance, not to let you continue to entangle with the previous life, but to bloom again in the new life. If you insist on indulging yourself, you are not disappointing the kindness of Heaven, but disappointing yourself.
Not everyone has the chance to start over again, so if you do get it, you must learn to cherish it.
Ah Yan talked to me for a while before going to bed. Her original intention was not to let me tell you these things, for fear that you would misunderstand. As for the misunderstanding, I might as well tell you that it was because one of her friends was very likely to be with the Seventh Prince of Dashun. She was afraid that if I told you these things, you would think that she wanted to pave the way for her friend.
But I think that since we have known each other for a while and you and Ah Yan are compatible, then no matter what you think, you have to say these words. Moreover, even in this life, even the person next to you is also cared about by Ah Yan's sister. So do you think she is biased? She is not biased. At least between you and her sister, she is on your side. "